April 2010
6 tags
A*** No-Doz
Do I deserve the criticism I get? Yeah, I deserve a lot more than that. I deserve punishment and hurtful things said about me that aren’t true. I deserve stove tops dropped on top of my head and my closest allies choosing desertion over companionship. I deserve to be alone. But no one really get’s what they deserve, do they? Instead I get this person kissing me and making me feel ok about my...
What i did when i wasn't with you
Hello 2010 goals, I don’t promise to complete you. I don’t even promise to try. I promise to look at you every now and again and feel really, really shit for not doing anything I want to set my mind to.
Learning to surf would be cool. Me in a wetsuit freaks me out beyond any nightmare, though. Wetsuits. Even the name. Reminds me of being thrown in the bath with all my clothes on when I was a...
16 tags
one week, two weeks, three months, 2 days
I apologise that I am lazy and carrying my laptop to a place where I can steal internet seems daunting enough to make me want to stay home and eat scones.
Scones I get free from work.
Big, stodgy scones.
Yuck, man.
Aah plus it’s fucking winter here and it’s so incredibly hard to tell what the end of the day will bring. And trying to haul my ass from the hospital to the airport...
“I think he fucks me like a toy, spreading my legs like plastic”
HEY SIS, GET BETTER SOON. →
9 tags
CRACKED UP AT THE SIGHT OF YOUR FACE. WONT YOU...
Homesick indeed. I wish I was away from my home long enough to feel even moderate affection for it. I’m going to miss long hours alone with a duvet and a tiny TV.
I’m laughing at my sexual nature and picking out groups of my guy friends I’ve kissed or slept with. The other two guys are looking around with open mouths, wondering what I must have been like a year ago. I really...
7 tags
It’s called karma and it’s either going to be your best friend or a sucker punch to your face. I’ve been sucking up to karma for a while and it’s paying me back ten fold. Hello good times and bunches of scrunched up photos of pretty girls and boys all smoking and laughing and looking like dorks.
I think you’re used to fucking really skinny girls because I can’t sit the way you expect me to and...
4 tags
Biting my nails down to burning stumps thinking about you.
My nail polish and the pit of my stomach cry out in despair.
I’m harbouring a box full of kittens in my chest and I keep on feeling this stupid tug of a smile creeping up. When I’m by myself I go crazy.
I am crazy.
…
3 tags
And yeah I do know the person that lives in the apartment on Ghuznee Street that used to say ‘SMILE’ and now says ‘THROW PARTIES NOT STONES’.
You can follow me if you want. I’m not that interesting.
Hence the window signs.
I have too much time on my hands..
5 tags
09-04-10
How can everyone be so happy, when I have a sister who might die, on purpose, at her own hand. Her own medication. Handfuls.
And then I would die, too.
And people continue to laugh and smile, and carry on and on.
A whole ordeal over mental health. Public health service. And me left sad after bottles of wine. But they just fall into my hands from racks. Cornerstore assistants just smile [and...
